mom: you can’t lie in bed all day and do nothing you have chores to do
me: close my door on your way out
“Sapiosexual: A behavior of becoming attracted or aroused by intelligence and its use.”
Idk how to start. I don’t know what I’m feeling all I know is that I’m not myself. Even my friend asked me if I was was okayy, that I seemed off. Which I am but idk why. Idk what’s bugging me. Or maybe I do I just don’t want to address it… I think it might be the fact that nothing’s the same. None of my relationships with people are the same anymore. I’m looking at these group of girl best friends having fun, turning up, drinking, and I’m thinking about how that’s how me and my friends were. I want things to go back to normal. To when we were all friends and would bug out together. Now everyone’s drifted apart, forming new cliques. But at the end of the day I don’t feel satisfied with my new friends. I can’t do the dumb silly things I did with them. I miss the way things used to be with me and my old friends. But things will never go back to the way they used to be 😔😔😔😔😔&& not to mention I feel like the boy that I’m fucking with isn’t really fucking with me anymore 😞😒 && I feel like the relationship with my RA is off because I feel she thinks I’m not taking this seriously. But I really am and it means a lot to me. && honestly that’s what I think has been bugging me because none of my relationships with people are the same anymore. I’m trying so hard to be cool with everyone to compensate for not having my old friends back. That I’m coming off as needy or clingy. Like I’m chillin with everyone and anyone. Like I’m just sitting in ppl’s room where I don’t even feel comfortable around them. I feel like I’m socially awkward.
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